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Today was beautiful. Especially after the strain of yesterday. Lovely blue skies, a nice pool workout this morning and a leisurly drive out in the country while the children were at school. I found some adorable little lakes south of me, surrounded by the oranges and reds and yellows of leaves trading their summer greens for fall brilliance. Tiny vacation cottages dotted the sides of the lakes, some built down steep inclines so harrowing that I wonder how the people that live there manage to climb down to their homes without injury. Where they live probably compensates for any possible downside.

I feel refreshed. I drove to the end of long deserted roads, turned off my engine and got out of my car to listen to the silence. Breathing fresh mountain air, touched with the kiss of woodsmoke from someone's beachside fire, I marveled at the beauty I am surrouned by. Solitude can be a wonderful thing.

I wish I'd not forgotten my camera.

Tonight my husband has taken our two youngest daughters to their school carnival. I'm not good with crowded places and I have a deadline tonight, so I stayed home to work. He's a wonderful father. I've been so blessed to have him by my side all these years.

Life is good. It really is.


  1. autumn is making all of blogworld go kinda pastoral, isn't it?
    now I gotta go drive the logging roads too. the hills around me have just gone up like fireworks in the last couple of days!

  2. I love driving the logging roads! Silence reigns and the colors are so bright they nearly blind you. Take some pictures!


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