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He's baaaaack!

My beautiful boy is back from his white water rafting trip. He had a spectacular time. I had such a wonderful time alone with him last night, before everyone else got home from the barbecue. We sat, we talked, we hugged.

Oh how I love my son. When he told me about being thrown in the water and pulled down, my heart skipped a beat. I'm glad I wasn't there to see it happen. Naturally he was wearing a life jacket and that brought him out of the depths.

I love him. So much I love this boy. I see in him such a maturity, then of course he does something goofy like jumping from the second story window to the trampoline, but still. He's growing up. My baby boy.


  1. Awwwwwwwww........ I can tell you love your son!

  2. So glad he's home safe and you have him once again! :)

  3. it's amazing how the love returns (not that it was gone) with a thudding, a ferocity.

  4. Janet, I do love this man-child of mine.

    ThoroughlyMM, I'm glad he's home in one piece as well.

    Anna~~for some reason it just hit me harder than usual last night as he sat beside me and we watched bits of LOST episodes on my laptop. I know he's too old to want to hold my hand, but I kept my hand on his arm and just that physical contact was enough for me. I miss the days of constant hugs, of running to me, arms outstretched, to be picked up and loved. ::sigh::

  5. Boys-2-men...

    Ya can't live with 'em, ya can't live without 'em.

    Don't think he didn't notice -- and cherish -- your hand on his arm. He still wants that. Needs it.

  6. my mother misses those as well. i've explained that to my brother. he's getting it. they're closer to 30 before they get it again.

  7. It's great to have them back, isn't it ? Jack had a go at white-water rafting in Oz - 6 rugby players, over 122 stone in one inflatable dingy!

  8. He'll always be your baby boy I expect. I don't think Bob will ever be a grown up to me, although it is heart stopping to see him from a distance and realise that the rest of the world sees a man!


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