... And I know not how to get it back.
I'm sure you've heard by now that blue is the new black, forty is the new thirty and they're lying through their teeth when they say that last thing. Also, imaginary childhood friends (you know you had one) have been replaced with online friends. They're the same in that no one ever really sees them, but you talk to them, you play with them, your other friends and family think you're just this side of a restraining jacket and you're a lot older than you were when you first had friends you never saw. Sure they're real you might say in that mocking tone you have . Well stop that. Save your mocking for later on when I tell you all about my Internet friends. No, I can't see them, or touch them, although some of them have asked me....um, well, we'll go into that later. People have become friends with other people across the world, sometimes they've become friends with people they'd never become friends with in RL. That means real life for ...
Oh Pam!!! :( I am so sad for you! I have NOT been where you are...I can only imagine the kind of pain you're in. You're whole family.
ReplyDeleteI have a co-worker/friend whose daughter has gone pretty much the rounds as well. Married, two children, fourth or fifth time in rehab, I'm not sure. Just finished the current bit, and is determined to stay clean. She has lost one of the kids to previous boyfriend...but at least has visits. Almost lost the youngest...
I don't know how the mom does it. I would be like you...dying each time.
Can you go to the temple and sit in the celestial room?
I really wish I could just come ease your pain...
Just know that my thoughts and heart is with you. Heavenly Father is there, He really is, and somehow you will pull through this. I know it looks dark and impossible...but somehow it will be made right.
Take care... Could you email me your address? If you trust I won't send a stalker to your door...lol
spazwriter@yahoo.com