This is a picture of her holding my last baby. She held Ashley Rose before I did, because I'd had a crash c-section to save Ashley's life. I never actually saw my baby for two days. Mom never let me forget that she held her first. It's not a great picture of my mom because she'd been crying an awful lot that night, not knowing if the baby or I would survive.
My mom was and is beautiful.
She taught ME how to a be mom. But the baby below is the one who made me a mom for the very first time. Stephanie Ann.
You were the light and the life in my world. My day, my night, my forever. My heart grew in size the moment I saw you. I've never been the same since that day in January 1989. Carol Lynn Pearson put it best in her poem, My Day Old Child.
My day old child in my arms
with my lips against his ear
I whispered strongly "How I wish,
I wish that you could hear,
"I've a hundred wonderful things to say
(A tiny cough and nod)
Hurry, hurry, hurry and grow
so I can tell you about God."
My day old baby's mouth was still
and my words only tickled his ear,
but a kind of light passed through his eyes,
and I saw this thought appear,
"How I wish I had a voice and words,
I've a hundred things to say,
Before I forget, I'd tell you of God,
I left Him yesterday."
So fresh from heaven. Perfect, miraculous and the most amazing being I'd ever had the honor of loving day and night.
Carol Lynn Pearson also spoke the words from my heart in her poem,
Your little fist
Like the pit
In a plum.
And one size,
These two hands will
Help me, child
When I fail you.
I'm your mother,
But in the end
Merely an older equal
Doing her faltering best
For a dear
Thank you for being my baby girl. For allowing me the experience to be a mom for the first time. Now that you are mom to Enzo, I hope you know that all the feelings you have running through you for your young son, were also coursing through my heart when I had you. My baby girl.
Happy first Mother's Day, baby girl. I love you.