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I'm still alive

At least I think so. Sorry to have disappeared off the face of the earth for awhile. Life seems to have gotten the better of me lately. Things going on that don't bear talking about in public right now. In a little while maybe life on my blog will resume as semi-normal as it was before.

Unitl then, hugs and kisses to those who have called or emailed or commented and missed me. I miss you all too.

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  1. Anonymous2:03 PM

    Oh Pam! I was starting to get worried and I couldn't pop over to check up on you. I hope things look up real soon! (Whenever I check your site the girls see your pict and yell Miss Pam!)

    xxooxx,
    Jenny

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  2. Take as long as you like, your obligations aren't here.

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  3. and there was me thinking I had upset ya..........

    Still alive and kicking.......
    That's not a bad thing eh!

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  4. She's back! She's back! It's the same one!

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  5. So good to hear you are still about. We do miss you so much... hugs...

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  6. When you feel up to it Pamela, why don't you pop over to my new blog at karenangelwithoutwings@blogspot.com and I'll make a nice cuppa tea and we'll chat.

    (Oh I forgot to tell you, I am Angel formerly known as Madame Butterfly, friend of Whitesnake)

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