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I became a new parent about three weeks ago. One thing I forgot from my previous parenting experience was to always nap when they nap, or you're going to be exhausted. Well, I'm exhausted. He gets up at the crack of holy-crap-why-can't-you-just-sleep-past-5-o'clock every morning. (Not to mention at least four times a night) He naps during the day several times. I haven't napped but I did yesterday. I fell asleep on the couch...and what did he do? Got up by himself and did things he wasn't supposed to do unsupervised. Like shower.

I have an 85 year old toddler who won't listen to reason. And yes, I understand that he's lost his ability to do most things that he loved---driving his big truck, working in his yard and other things---but his Parkinsons and his balance have made changes to everything that was once safe for him to do on his own. I love him dearly and am only trying to keep him safe.

This tightrope I'm walking between daughter and caregiver is not for the faint of heart. When he mistreats me I count to ten in my head and smile. I know he's taking out his frustrations on the only target that will continue to love him no matter what---but I will admit that it is emotionally draining.

So, please pray for my reserves of patience to be filled to overflowing. I'm gonna need it.

Happy parenting.

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  1. Oh boy!! you've taken on a tough road. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers, my friend. You're awesome. I'm so glad to see you posting again - with what you've taken on I don't imagine we'll be seeing much of you, but hope you get a chance once in a while. Take care!

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  2. I think that I ought to post more often tho....it will be cathartic for me. Writing things out generally helps me. We shall see. Thank you for thinking of me. You've been so very good to me. One day we will have to meet, k? :)

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