It's like this...

Do you ever do something you don't want to do, in order to get out of doing something else that you don't want to do? I did that today. I spent all morning cleaning and de-junking our bedroom/office because when I sat down at my desk and saw all the clutter I just couldn't work with all of it around me. Uh huh. It didn't stop me for the past month, but suddenly it's annoying me now? Yeah, I don't think so. I think I've just been putting off finishing up this eBook for a client because I can't get my mind around it....sooooooo I'm stalling. Procrastinating. Now my room is clean and I'm STILL not working. Get a grip Pammy. Anyone have a grip they can loan me? Mine seems to be out of service right now And with that I'll end with a picture of my girls Allison and Ashley and my niece Nicole standing in front of a Llama this weekend. We went to a pumpkin farm with them and they had a blast. (My girls are on the right)

I was watching CNN (gag, choke) and just heard Wolf Blitzer ask if Gov. Schwarzenegger is reprising his role as an action hero in the California fires. I've talked to family and friends down there and so far they're all right, but are packed and ready to run. Horrible.....

Is it possible? I feel torn most of the time. I've got so much work to do, and I love the work I'm doing. It feeds me, creatively. Then I feel as though I'm neglecting my children at times because I AM working so much. It's a fine line. Does anyone have some advice?

Hubby kidnapped me on Tuesday and forced me to drive though a beautiful valley, full of trees that are changing colors then took me to a bakery and coerced me into buying a cinnamon roll. I told him my boss wasn't going to like it that I was missing work Here's a tree at Flaming Geyser State Park. If you look closely you can see the Green River.

They've issued a wind watch for today and tonight. Wheeeeee! Last year's windstorm was such fun. Hopefully it won't be a repeat. I took the girls shopping yesterday and picked up some coats on sale to keep them warm. Here's Ashley all winterized. She was so proud that she got her gloves on all by herself. I'd post a picture of Ally too but for some reason my cell didn't send me the picture.... I have about 16 more eBooks to finish writing for clients so I'd better get to it. This week I've written eBooks on the Law of Attraction, Visualization, Cold Sores and Fever Blisters, and there were a couple more that I can't think of right now. Anyways....off to work.

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Just before one in the morning my cell phone rang. I'm always up that late, usually I'm up until three or four in the morning working. I looked at my cell phone and it read Restricted. When I answered I heard someone sobbing. A woman. I thought it was my sister. She kept saying that dad was dead.....dad was dead. I nearly came undone. After a few moments I realized that it wasn't my sister, and I thought some poor soul had called my number by mistake. Until I found out this morning that my sister's phone had run a few minutes after my phone call. The number was Restricted. I'm thankful that my father is all right and once again I'm disappointed in some of my fellow human beings.

Ah yes. Such fun. I drove up to Seattle to take my Dad to lunch. We ate haute cuisine at the Northgate Mall. Ally and Ash had Kidd Valley of course. Then we visited my sister for awhile and I tried to do some work on my laptop while I was there but the system I was piggy backing on wasn't strong enough to send files and I had to shut my system down. We played at Paramount Park, and then at Carkeek Park. This was the park of my high school youth. I stood there in the middle of the big green field and I swear if I squinted I could see Ben, John, Kevin, Carin and I running around, laughing and playing frisbee. So I called my best friend Carin, who has mysteriously gone from a Pacific Northwest girl, to a desert dwelling suburban mom. I sat here..... and as I watched the sunset, we reminisced about the fun we'd had, and how odd it was to be standing where I was, with my son who is now the age I was when this was my park. Melancholy.... and some sadness. It's a strang...

Can it already be Tuesday? It must be. But I thought it was Friday yesterday....I'm so out of whack with my days and nights. With hubby working the swing shift, neither one of us manages to get to sleep before three in the morning most of the time. Its insane. We're hopeful he can get on days soon so we can get our days and nights back the way they're supposed to be. Since it's only 11:15 I still have four hours at least to finish writing that client's eBook. Ok Pammy....back to work.

b Happy Birthday Ashley!! Nine years ago today they wheeled me into the operating room after telling me you might not survive. No one knew you'd had a stroke, we only knew you'd stopped moving and your heartbeat was fading. Then they told us you wouldn't walk or talk or become all the things that you've grown up to be today. You are truly my miracle child, the child so close to my heart that when you hurt, I cry. I'm grateful every day for you and for the things you taught me. Thank you for being my baby angel, baby girl.

I took a break from writing today to take my two girls to the Little Gym for a free class to see if they enjoyed it. They did! I brought my laptop with me so I could work while they were in there tumbling and rolling and racing around. It looked like they were having such a good time. I think I'll sign them up for this. Also, I took down the comment moderation thingy, but I'm afraid I'll have to put it back up again as there are some very ugly-souled people out there who don't seem to have a sense of humor about much. I don't need that negativity in my life...and neither does anyone else coming here to read. Buh-Bye mean spirited people. And now....back to work. Yes, it's nearly midnight. No, I'm not done yet.